In fact, fear of people thinking I was crazy kept me from seeking real help. I wasn't completely honest with him about all of my symptoms, for fear that he would think I was crazy. He suspected seizure disorder, but treated me for chronic syncope (fainting). I wasn't aware when it happened-all I remember was telling her about the deja vu and then I was out. When I was pregnant with my son at 21, my mom swore I had a Grand Mal seizure in front of her. I remember being so scared, I even tried to write down the things I was seeing during the deja vu, but when I'd come around, all I would see were scribbles on the paper, which resembled a child's handwriting. These episodes plagued me repeatedly for years and they were more than scary. When I would come to, I would feel like I'd run a marathon, my head would feel as though someone had stuffed it with cotton, I felt disoriented and all I wanted to do was SLEEP. It was trancelike.almost like I was just floating away. Then, I would slip into a dreamlike state, see things and be unable to talk. I knew where I was, but I wasn't really there-I think you might be able to relate. I would feel a sense of deja vu, accompanied by a feeling of intense fear, dread, sweating, nausea and lightheadedness. Since I was 15/16, I can remember doing everyday tasks, or trying to fall asleep and suddenly being struck with this sense of something being amiss. My epilepsy went undiagnosed for nearly fifteen years.
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